Thursday, December 29, 2011

Religious Differences

Do your beliefs closely match your owners?
Religiously? Not at all, really. How we treat people? About 99%, yes. There is always something that we will disagree on.

In areas where they do not, can the differences cause difficulty?
If we started a conversation about them, it could turn into a heated argument.

How do you reconcile differences?
We agree to disagree. Religion isn't our main focus in our relationship, our communciation and how we treat one another is.

I will not force my thoughts on him, and he won't force his thoughts on me. I may not agree with his thoughts on God and such, but if wants to go to church, I won't forbid him to go. If I want to go to a marriage equality rally, he won't forbid me to go.

Gratitude

01) I am thankful for a Master who cares about me as more than just a slave.
02) I am thankful for a chance to explore this side of me.
03) I am thankful for a patient Master.
04) I am thankful for my skill at picking something up as quickly as I do.
05) I am thankful for my skill at being able to decide right away if I like something or not.
06) I am thankful for Master saying 'yes' to marriage.
07) I am thankful for the connection I have with Master.
08) I am thankful for the family that accepts me for who I am.
09) I am thankful for the openness that Master and I share.
10) I am thankful for taking the chance and moving to a whole different state.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Interference

Have you felt illness or other factors (depression, stress, PMS, etc) interfere with your ability to serve as well as you want?

 I have all of those .Depression, panic/anxiety disorders, triggers for my PTSD, most likely bipolar disorder, and a lot of other issues in my head. I have a lot of fears that have to do with socializing, and with trusting people. The first thing I did once Master and I decided to be in a relationship in general was tell him about all these things, and the most likely cause of them.

He knows all the triggers that I know of, he knows what things I want to face, and what things that I will never get over. He knows me, in and out.

How do you handle those times?

 If an episode happens in the middle of whatever we are doing, say a scene we are playing, he will stop immediately, ask me what is wrong, and then decide if we continue or not. If it's because I'm having anxiety about using a new toy, he'll do it slowly until I tell him a full stop.

If it's something simple, and I'm having some emotional breakdown, or coming down hard from a subdrop, he stops immediately and focuses on after care.

If it's an episode that happens just randomly, while we are just hanging out at home, he will make me talk about. Talking through it really does help it go away, and help me focus on the reality of what is going on, not some anxiety or fear that is going through my head.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it. —Mother Theresa


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Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
There are many opportunities that spring up on people. Some notice it, some do not. Some see it, but decide to ignore it. Sometimes it's good to forget that opportunity you saw was there. Obviously, it depends on the nature of the chance.

On the subject of submission, this was a total chance. It's terrifying to me to let someone control my ways. I have a set routine, certain things I do throughout the day. Giving myself and my habits over to someone completely shakes up my personal world.

And, oh what a shake up it has been!

Finding someone who you have things in common with, who opens doors to knew interests, makes submission so much easier to do.  The benefits I have from someone caring for me, and me caring for Him, is a lot more than I ever thought.

 Life is beauty, admire it.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I know that what I think is 'beautiful', others may not agree.

The look in the Master and slave's eyes as they look at each other, the slave looking up, while the Master looking down. That's beautiful.  The smile on his face when I do something he has asked of me, that's beautiful. The look of the chocolate cake I make him is beautiful.

(Alright, I'm craving cake right now, had to throw that in.)

I admire a lot of people who are strong, who face their fears, and who have dealt with their issues, whatever they may be, in mature and realistic ways.

Life is bliss, taste it.
You never know what you may find once you pick that candy out of the box. Might as well take a bite and see how horrible it can be. You may find that you like the taste of a new chocolate treat.

Life is a dream, realize it.
Evaluate what makes you smile, what makes you feel warm and fuzzy inside. These are great goals to set for yourself. Realizing what makes you happy will probably help make life as good as possible for you.

My dreams? Family, love, and acceptance. That's what I want out of life, and that' is what I want.

Life is a challenge, meet it.
Challenging myself is a hard thing for me to do.  I know that I can make myself better at whatever I am doing, if I challenge myself to meet my goals.

My fears, phobias, and mental issues have always been a challenge. The fact that Master knows what needs to be challenged, and what can't be fixed, really makes thing easy for me.

Him giving me assignments makes me want to reach the goals we set, makes me want to get over any fears and reservations about an issue I might have.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Duty. My sense of duty is in relation to how I treat other people. People are people - they have feelings, thoughts, and intellect. My duty is to recognize that, and see people for who they are, not what they look like.

My duty to Master is to please him, love him, and help him through any problems he may have. His duty is the same, and he know that.

Having someone who shares a similar since of honor and duty is a check off my list of a good dominant for me.

Life is a game, play it.
Playing the game of life is deadly. You will never know the future on a level of absolute certainty. You will never no the consequences of an action until you actually take the chance.

I say weigh your options. If the pros outweigh the cons, the risk is lower, go for that option.

Master and I are playing the games of a relationship. Who knows what will come of it, all that matters is the here and now. What we roll right now, and what we land on, and how we deal with it.

That makes our life, and that makes the game.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Honor your commitments - I will always promote this. If you aren't as good as your word, then what are you? All we have are words and actions. Those things will help shape the opinions others has of us.

My promises to Master will not be broken. There my be hardships, there may be good times, but we will always work through them. That is my promise.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life sucks. Bad things happen, and what happens next is up to you. It's how you handle it. Giving yourself time to grieve,  time to recognize that you need a moment to yourself before you can stand back help only aids in the process of overcoming things.

Relationships may end, but you can learn from them.

Any sorrow that enters your heart can have a lesson in it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.
What makes something worth having? How hard you worked for it. I can't just take something, and have done nothing to earn it.

Going into the relationship with Master, I couldn't think it was going to be all kittens and rainbows. Nothing is perfect, and it's doomed to fail if you think that.

I look forward to my struggles with Master, as that will help us grow as a couple, and as a Master and slave in our own personal way.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Hiding never fixes anything. Master refuses to let me hide my thoughts and issues. I expect the same from him. Tragedies happen, you learn from them, you appreciate the people involved, and you move on.

I have seen some things in my life that I wish I could take back. I refuse to hide from them any longer. Moving on takes time, and confrontation.

Life is an adventure, dare it.
Have fun! Life is boring, Enjoy it while it lasts. That's all I have to say on this topic.

Life is luck, make it.
Nothing comes for free. If you want something, you need to take it.

The same is with my relationship. If I want something to happen, I need to say something. If I want something to stop, I need to say something.

Master will listen.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
My mental state, my physical state, and any other state I may have, is precious to myself. I won't let them go without a fight.

Life is life, fight for it.
I will fight for everything I have, and everything I hold dear. That is my life.