I've been in a depressive state that last few weeks. It's been up and down, but it's always been there at least a little bit. I really think I need to get checked out by a doctor, but with no insurance, it's hard to find a place that will do it with a sliding scale.
I feel that I've been putting Master in a hard place. He wants to take care of me, but he can only do so much - most of this depression is not rational. I can't control it. Yesterday, I was fine, and then when the evening came, I was so depressed I just wanted to lay in bed and stare at the ceiling. I even almost went to bed around 7:30, but Master distracted me.
We talked about jobs I could apply for, talked about our grocery list, looked at our new recipe book we got a week or so ago.
It's still there. And I still feel like a burden to Master.